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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

15.06.2025 22:17

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

When she asked me how she looked .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My husband asked me why do I keep on complaining about him cheating. Why don't I just leave?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Would this be the day?

How would you feel about your husband allowing a mutual friend to see you naked and exposed to show off your pussy?

We were not on the streets..

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Have you ever accidentally seen your mother-in-law doing something that was private to her?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I don,t even have a pension.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Why do some people admire Latin American cultures but not want to be from or live in those countries?

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I waited trembling.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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I will be 64.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I was scared of men, in general

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The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

She loved him until the end.

How good do you sing and how do you know this?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I think the readers, may guess!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Ive learnt so much.

Im still living with it.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I was 9 years of age.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But, we were locked up after school.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

What did i know ?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

All the time i was locked up.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I write beautiful poetry .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He resisted the act ,that day.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I could never make a relationship work though!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

So, i spoilt her more .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She wouldn,t have been !

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I said to her

And i lived it daily.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I was very sick at this time too.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He knew the spot.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

(And it was in our own minds.)

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Who then, do I blame.?

Comes on , in middle age.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Was to survive, this bastard.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

She was in good health!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

My life is so biszare .

It was going to be , some day.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

This is soul school!.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I did it because my mum asked me too!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I couldn’t, believe it.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Where the ultimate outsiders.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

Put me off passion for life!!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But it wasn’t much.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

So whats the point in blame.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I was seconnd youngest,

One cannot live in the past .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

We all went to grammer schools

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

As i do to all so called friends.?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Especially a lifetime of it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

She married twice! .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She found it foreign!.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I have no regrets .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

My family never makes their pension either.